These two sentences struck home. I did not like what they implied.
Not at all.

I had to start to take responsibility for my life. So long as someone else
was responsible I did not have to do anything did I? How could I? If I was
not responsible I could not help myself. A great rationalisation to
be lazy.

I started to be more honest with myself. I started integrating myself out of
the stagnation-rut I was in. How? With integrated-honest-thinking. When I
looked at myself in the mirror in the mornings I stopped looking for so many
excuses. I began to remove the rationalisations I had used to not take on
100%-total-self-responsibility.

As I thought more honestly I could not hide behind those excuses anymore because
I began to realise they were dishonest. They were lies. Lies I had used in the
past to garner pseudo-self-esteem. As I began to tear down my bogus excuses/
rationalisations my self-esteem began to shrink. I began to dislike myself
more and more.

Can you comprehend how it feels when you reach a stage where you feel-so-very-
small? You feel like jumping off the nearest bridge!

I chose the alternative:to change; but it is not easy repeat not
easy. It was one of the hardest things I had to do in my life!

You know something; we do not want to do things to our lives that harm us, do we?
That is illogical. But people say it is our fault don't they? It's funny that
we are taught all our lives not to take on self-responsibility. Our teachers do
it. Our government does it. We are taught that we need them. We are taught to
be dependent. But instead we need to be taught to be independent; how to build
our lives ourselves.

To give but a few examples. There are centres/strips/medicine to help us stop
smoking; therapists to help us stop drinking; there are sleeping policemen in the
road to stop speeding. Does this not imply that we are cannot be responsible for
our actions? We need someone/something else to be responsible for our actions.

Who benefits from this implied way of thinking? The people who tell us what to
do. They have the lazy job of supervision. They produce nothing; in fact,
they destroy our lives. They teach us that we are not and cannot be responsible
for our lives in order that they can become our leaders, our advisers. We end
up believing this. That way these parasites have jobs. They remove from us our
power! We end up believing that we cannot run our own lives. This is a massive hoax.

They teach us that we need them. That way they have a lazy job. These people
are not prepared to produce values for the market place. They survive by
living off values produced by others; they are parasites. In fact, the worst
sort of parasite I know; they live off their own kind. They ride off
society. They steal values.

This type of parasite is far worse than the ordinary thief. The thief takes
our possessions and that is the end of it. He does not rationalise that he
is doing it for our own good. He does not attempt to corrupt our belief-system.

I refer to these so called leaders/advisers as humanoids. They not only
steal from us but give us many reasons/rationalisations saying directly or
indirectly that they are doing us well. For those rationalisations they
give us to work, they have to corrupt our thinking-process.

I am not here to convince you about what I am writing here. No one can
convince anyone. That is why I said at the very beginning to think over
very carefully about whether you wanted to change.

People act on the basis of what they believe. I cannot change your or
anyone’s beliefs. You/they accepted/put them in your mind not me. The
only person who can change these beliefs is you. But you must want to
and don’t say to yourself you can’t. That too is a rationalisation.

Oh yes it can be done albeit with much discipline thought and control
(DCT). I know that because I've done it.

In the course of changing I have had to understand and change my
belief-system. Our beliefs shape our actions and our actions determine
our destiny. So if you want to control your destiny then go to the very
root. Go to your belief system. Learn to control your beliefs in order
to control your destiny.

                                                                                      To be continued